while una is with sandy i returned to cousin ruths. john and i took tea outside and i walked bare footed on the grass – first time for 11 weeks!! i drank the fresh air and sights and sounds of the garden – and i wanted sandy to be here, to be where we can have our own rhythm .
what would sandy want? simplicity, calm, peacefulness, silence, support for me. i am frustrated by my floundering and uncertainty, my inability to be decisive – my fear? unwilllingness? to take up the responsibilty of the role with which he entrusted me.
even if i said yes today it could take 2 weeks to organise. we may not have that amount of time. help me to think more of him and his journey than mmy own frustrations. his destiny is his alone.
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Our love and good wishes for peaceful hearts wing to you on the wind. Apologies Rae for the lack of phone service – storms and lightening means after a week we have internet once more but phone still on diversion to Ian’s cell phone and the service is inclined to cut out – sorry that happened today. We are here for you, phone services permitting. More storms due over NZ in the next few days.
Dear Rae,
“…simplicity, calm, peacefulness, silence, support for Rae.” Yes, I think that is what Sandy would be asking for. It is not too much to ask for.
We are thinking of you all, every day, and wishing you deep peace. We are going to be away for the next five days, but will be in touch again when we get back. Till then, dear Rae and Sandy, deep peace, simplicity, calm, peacefulness, silence, and support.
With all our love,
Eleanor and John